Saturday, June 27, 2009
Hypothyroidism
When I went to the dr. on Tuesday, I also had to have some bloodwork, one test being to check my thyroid level. Turns out I have hypothyroidism (too little thyroid gland). This could be a contributing factor to my depression. So, I am now on a thyroid medication and probably will be for the rest of my life. I have to go see a family practice dr. in 6 weeks. It is hereditary and both my memaw and grandaddy have hyper or hypothyroidism. She said that it can sometimes occur during or after pregnancy. The things having a baby does to your body, atleast they are worth it! I think I have officially decided that I am done having babies, I don't want to fall apart anymore!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Silly Boy
Jagger has developed quite the personality lately! This morning I was changing his diaper and he would not be still rolling from side to side, kicking his legs, waving his arms, blowing raspberries, and talking to me! It is so cute, but my baby is growing up! He is laying on his play mat right now playing with his toys, just talking and squealing away! I put him in his bumbo in front of the toys and he loves it! He is always so happy! Our neighbor loves talking to him because he will smile the whole time and yesterday he was laughing at him! I think he is going to be a handful! We started him on prevacid yesterday. I am not sure how it is working yet, I gave it last night before bed. My mom is coming a week from today and she is bringing him a little swimming pool, I can't wait to see how he likes it since he loves his bath time! I will defintely take pictures!
I also thought I would give a quick update on how the medication seems to be working. I started it on Wednesday and it was actually a pretty good day. Yesterday sucked pretty bad. I just felt like I was here and I was SO exhausted. I wake up tons at night just thinking of random crap. Today feels like it is going to be like yesterday. I have to get motivated though, my mom is coming in a week. The crazy thoughts of Jagger dieing don't seem to be as bad, thank goodness.
Hopefully I can find the cord to download pictures so that I can take some of what we have done with the house so far.
I also thought I would give a quick update on how the medication seems to be working. I started it on Wednesday and it was actually a pretty good day. Yesterday sucked pretty bad. I just felt like I was here and I was SO exhausted. I wake up tons at night just thinking of random crap. Today feels like it is going to be like yesterday. I have to get motivated though, my mom is coming in a week. The crazy thoughts of Jagger dieing don't seem to be as bad, thank goodness.
Hopefully I can find the cord to download pictures so that I can take some of what we have done with the house so far.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Slacker
Sorry I have been such a blog slacker lately, I just haven't felt up to it. Everyone is doing good in our house. Aaron taught Jagger to stick his tongue out, so for the past couple of days, his tongue has constantly been out! He will try to put anything in his mouth, no matter what it is! Yesterday, he grabbed towards Aaron's glass of tea and opened his mouth like he knew you drink out of it! Of course, he didn't get a drink, he is too young, but it was funny! We are switching him to prevacid because the ranitidine doesn't seem to be working as well anymore. I have to go pick it up, but our insurance had to approve it first. He is growing like a weed!
The house is coming together, slowly. We have the kitchen painted, bought a new comforter for our bedroom, an over the range microwave, and some other random stuff. One day I will get to all of the boxes in the garage! Monday night, Aaron and I mowed the yard. Call me crazy, but I love mowing the yard! I let Aaron do the weedeatting! We are hoping to get started on the fence this week since all the lines have been marked. We have a family of squirrels in a tree that is in front of our house, the babies are SO cute!
Alex bit someone yesterday, yes Alex, the sweet, friendly one. A guy from the water dept. came to read our meter and it is in the basement. I told him I would lock the dogs up, but he said it was ok, he had dachshunds. Next thing I know, he says that one of the long hair one's bit him and it jumped up and bit him, so I guess it was Alex. Emma doesn't jump and she has mellowed out in her old years. So, I have to take him to the vet 3 times in the next 10 days. I took him for the first time today and he doesn't appear to be rabid! He just got his vaccine back in December. The guy came back today to hook up something on the outside of the house and he said he was fine, it was just a little sore. I apologized greatly and told him how bad I felt, but he said not worry about it, things happen.
I went to the dr. yesterday for my ppd. I called and talked to one of the nurses and told them how I had been feeling and she wanted me to come in the same day. I thought it was time to call because I wrote a very hateful email to Aaron yesterday morning, I cried alot yesterday morning, and I felt like I was going to have a nervous break down at any given second, especially after the biting incident. I will not go into alot of detail about how I feel, because I don't like putting myself out there much, but I want other newly moms to know what it is like so they can get help. I wished I would have called earlier and not let it get this bad, but I kept telling myself that it was just the stress of buying a house and my lack of sleep. So, I had to do a depression screening with the nurse practitioner that asked all these questions. She also asked about previous depression and family history of depression, which is none. I told her about my grandfather recently dieing, she remembered that I recently moved away from family, I told her about buying the house (which honestly did not stress me out), and some other random things. So I was diagnosed with moderate to severe PPD. I have started taking zoloft and I go meet with a psychologist next week. I go back to the dr. in a month to re-evaluate how I am feeling, because it can take that long for the medication to work properly. I really hope this works, because it sucks feeling like this. I think I was in denial for a long time and it finally got so bad that I had no choice but to realize that something was wrong. I would get so angry at Aaron for no reason, it was like a time bomb waiting to explode on almost a daily basis. I am so thankful that he is such a good husband and father, or I probably would be a single parent! I cry on a daily basis, I am probably 90% of the time sad, don't care about doing anything, I wake up in the middle of the night just thinking about random things, and one of the worst feelings is that I am constantly worried about Jagger dieing. I always think of these tragic ways that he is going to die and that I will not be able to go on. I don't mean like I think of things once or twice a week, I am mean I am thinking of crazy stuff multiple times a day. I am also always worried that Aaron and I are going to die and that there isn't going to be anyone to take care of Jagger. Just a few days ago, a deer was at the edge of the road and all I could imagine was hitting the deer and the vehicle being crushed killing me and Jagger. My heart started racing and it became hard for me to breath for a few seconds. There is more, but like I said, I am not going to put myself out there too much.
So, excuse my lack of blogging, hopefully I will feel more up to it in a few days or weeks.
I wanted to add that I have found the MOST delicious homemade strawberry ice cream recipe you will EVER eat! If we don't have any in the freezer, Aaron is asking me to make more! You have to come see us to get a taste though :)
The house is coming together, slowly. We have the kitchen painted, bought a new comforter for our bedroom, an over the range microwave, and some other random stuff. One day I will get to all of the boxes in the garage! Monday night, Aaron and I mowed the yard. Call me crazy, but I love mowing the yard! I let Aaron do the weedeatting! We are hoping to get started on the fence this week since all the lines have been marked. We have a family of squirrels in a tree that is in front of our house, the babies are SO cute!
Alex bit someone yesterday, yes Alex, the sweet, friendly one. A guy from the water dept. came to read our meter and it is in the basement. I told him I would lock the dogs up, but he said it was ok, he had dachshunds. Next thing I know, he says that one of the long hair one's bit him and it jumped up and bit him, so I guess it was Alex. Emma doesn't jump and she has mellowed out in her old years. So, I have to take him to the vet 3 times in the next 10 days. I took him for the first time today and he doesn't appear to be rabid! He just got his vaccine back in December. The guy came back today to hook up something on the outside of the house and he said he was fine, it was just a little sore. I apologized greatly and told him how bad I felt, but he said not worry about it, things happen.
I went to the dr. yesterday for my ppd. I called and talked to one of the nurses and told them how I had been feeling and she wanted me to come in the same day. I thought it was time to call because I wrote a very hateful email to Aaron yesterday morning, I cried alot yesterday morning, and I felt like I was going to have a nervous break down at any given second, especially after the biting incident. I will not go into alot of detail about how I feel, because I don't like putting myself out there much, but I want other newly moms to know what it is like so they can get help. I wished I would have called earlier and not let it get this bad, but I kept telling myself that it was just the stress of buying a house and my lack of sleep. So, I had to do a depression screening with the nurse practitioner that asked all these questions. She also asked about previous depression and family history of depression, which is none. I told her about my grandfather recently dieing, she remembered that I recently moved away from family, I told her about buying the house (which honestly did not stress me out), and some other random things. So I was diagnosed with moderate to severe PPD. I have started taking zoloft and I go meet with a psychologist next week. I go back to the dr. in a month to re-evaluate how I am feeling, because it can take that long for the medication to work properly. I really hope this works, because it sucks feeling like this. I think I was in denial for a long time and it finally got so bad that I had no choice but to realize that something was wrong. I would get so angry at Aaron for no reason, it was like a time bomb waiting to explode on almost a daily basis. I am so thankful that he is such a good husband and father, or I probably would be a single parent! I cry on a daily basis, I am probably 90% of the time sad, don't care about doing anything, I wake up in the middle of the night just thinking about random things, and one of the worst feelings is that I am constantly worried about Jagger dieing. I always think of these tragic ways that he is going to die and that I will not be able to go on. I don't mean like I think of things once or twice a week, I am mean I am thinking of crazy stuff multiple times a day. I am also always worried that Aaron and I are going to die and that there isn't going to be anyone to take care of Jagger. Just a few days ago, a deer was at the edge of the road and all I could imagine was hitting the deer and the vehicle being crushed killing me and Jagger. My heart started racing and it became hard for me to breath for a few seconds. There is more, but like I said, I am not going to put myself out there too much.
So, excuse my lack of blogging, hopefully I will feel more up to it in a few days or weeks.
I wanted to add that I have found the MOST delicious homemade strawberry ice cream recipe you will EVER eat! If we don't have any in the freezer, Aaron is asking me to make more! You have to come see us to get a taste though :)
Monday, June 15, 2009
What a ride
Aaron and I have been talking about how our lives have changed SO much over the past 18 months. It is beyond amazing! Aaron finally got a job that he likes and he gives us a wonderful life. I got a job that I loved and it was a hard decision to become a sahm, but my "new" job is much more rewarding! We finally got to move away from crappy Tennessee. We never thought it would be north, but south. Honestly, I am so happy that it worked out that we moved up here. It fits Aaron and I so much better than the south. Most people from back home couldn't live here because it is like a different world and nothing like the south, but I am truly happy here. Then we decided it was time we expanded our family, little did we know how much love was in our hearts to welcome such a precious baby boy! Motherhood is everything I expected it too be and much more. Jagger is an absolute sweetheart and I never ever knew that I could love something so small so much and instantly. The love a mother has for her child is like no other. It is a different kind of love. Now we own a home. It is the american dream and it has come true for us! We have the perfect little house to watch Jagger grow up in! Before it was even ours, he laughed for the first time in this house! Today he started blowing raspberries! Seriously, could life get any better?!?!
Our house is coming together, slowly. We have the living room and dining room painted and arranged how we want it. It is a very neutral green called lion. I still have to decorate, when I get to those boxes! I started painting the kitchen today, it is going to be a yellow color called bagel. I will take pictures soon and post them. It is starting to feel like home! After I get the kitchen painted, I am going to start on Jagger's bathroom, it is going to be golf. We are wanting to get more done outside while it is nice and then do more inside in the winter. Outside, we are going to be putting up a fence hopefully starting this week, landscape the yard so that it slops away from the house, create flower beds, put shutters on the house and possibly window boxes for flowers, get the driveway concreted, actually get grass growing, not weeds, and I am sure there is something i am forgetting. Some things we plan to do inside is tile the entry from the garge and put in hardwood steps instead of carpet, it is already super muddy and dirty. We are also going to put slate tile in the bathrooms and possibly get a different vanity for Jagger's bathroom. I am going to paint Jagger's room, the guest room (probably bagel because I will have alot left over), and then paint our bedroom and bathroom. That will not be fun with 15 foot ceilings in our bedroom! We have meet all of our neighbors and they are wonderful! They see us out and come to introduce themselves, wave, come say hi, or come tell us things about the community. You know those perfect little communities that you always see on tv with super freindly neighbors? That is our community, it is awesome!
Like I mentioned above, Jagger started blowing raspberries today! It is so cute! I just started noticing it this afternoon and Aaron said he heard him this morning when he was changing his diaper, but thought it was coming out the wrong end! It is adorable! We meet a friend for Jagger. There is a 6 month old baby across the street named William, can you imagine how much fun they will have, being so close in age! Jagger started teething and it was bad at first, but it doesn't seem to be bothering him as much anymore. He is still getting up alot at night and I have not had time to finish my book, so we have not made or started a plan. I have never seen a baby as happy as Jagger, seriously he is always happy! The only time he cries or fusses is when he is sleepy or hungry. He doesn't even do that if I catch it a little before I know he is about to get ready for a nap or bedtime.
So, that is what is going on in the Jackson home! I will try to post some pictures soon, first I have to find the cord to get the pictures on my computer!
Our house is coming together, slowly. We have the living room and dining room painted and arranged how we want it. It is a very neutral green called lion. I still have to decorate, when I get to those boxes! I started painting the kitchen today, it is going to be a yellow color called bagel. I will take pictures soon and post them. It is starting to feel like home! After I get the kitchen painted, I am going to start on Jagger's bathroom, it is going to be golf. We are wanting to get more done outside while it is nice and then do more inside in the winter. Outside, we are going to be putting up a fence hopefully starting this week, landscape the yard so that it slops away from the house, create flower beds, put shutters on the house and possibly window boxes for flowers, get the driveway concreted, actually get grass growing, not weeds, and I am sure there is something i am forgetting. Some things we plan to do inside is tile the entry from the garge and put in hardwood steps instead of carpet, it is already super muddy and dirty. We are also going to put slate tile in the bathrooms and possibly get a different vanity for Jagger's bathroom. I am going to paint Jagger's room, the guest room (probably bagel because I will have alot left over), and then paint our bedroom and bathroom. That will not be fun with 15 foot ceilings in our bedroom! We have meet all of our neighbors and they are wonderful! They see us out and come to introduce themselves, wave, come say hi, or come tell us things about the community. You know those perfect little communities that you always see on tv with super freindly neighbors? That is our community, it is awesome!
Like I mentioned above, Jagger started blowing raspberries today! It is so cute! I just started noticing it this afternoon and Aaron said he heard him this morning when he was changing his diaper, but thought it was coming out the wrong end! It is adorable! We meet a friend for Jagger. There is a 6 month old baby across the street named William, can you imagine how much fun they will have, being so close in age! Jagger started teething and it was bad at first, but it doesn't seem to be bothering him as much anymore. He is still getting up alot at night and I have not had time to finish my book, so we have not made or started a plan. I have never seen a baby as happy as Jagger, seriously he is always happy! The only time he cries or fusses is when he is sleepy or hungry. He doesn't even do that if I catch it a little before I know he is about to get ready for a nap or bedtime.
So, that is what is going on in the Jackson home! I will try to post some pictures soon, first I have to find the cord to get the pictures on my computer!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
We are HOME!
Well, we closed on the house Tuesday and moved the majority of things on Wednesday. We do not have the internet yet, it will be Friday before it is hooked up, but I am "borrowing" someone else's connection! Closing took fooooooreeeeever. We were told it would only take around 45 minutes, but we were there for at least 3 hours and Jagger was fussing the whole time. Something about the stupid appliances is the reason that it took forever. So, if you are buying a house, DO NOT include appliances in your contract! I also think that Jagger has started teething and it has been a nightmare. He seems to be feeling better today, but the past few days he has been so fussy and cranky. I am going to be trying out my convection oven this evening! That is all for now, I will update more as I can.
Monday, June 8, 2009
One year ago today....
we found out we were having a baby! I swear it doesn't seem like it has been a year, time goes by too quickly. I sometimes wish I could rewind life and go back to when Jagger was a teeny little baby. I try to take in every day the best that I can because I know it goes by so quickly.
Jagger is also 4 months old today. Again, where has time gone. I will take a picture of him later, he is a sleepy boy from his appointment this morning.
We had his 4 month check up and shots today. He weighs 12 pounds 13 ounces (13th percentile), 24 inches long (19th percentile), and head circumference of 41.5 cm (31st percentile). So he has jumped up in the weight percentile even though he is still small and he has a big noggin! I am going to start giving him more zantac because the current dosage seems to have stopped working as well. If it does not work well, then we will start with another medication. She was impressed with how high and how long he holds his head up and then he rolled over! We talked about starting solids. She does not recommend that they be started before 5 months, but preferably 6 months. I already knew that I was not going to start until 6 months. I have done alot of research and I think this is what is best for Jagger. So many people start their little one's on solids before it is time and probably without doing alot of research on it. I found that kellymom.com and Wholesome Baby Food have a tremendous amount of information. I have had a few people tell me that I should start Jagger on cereal because it may help him sleep through the night. I beg to differ. You do not replace a feeding with cereal, you do it after a baby as been fed with breastmilk or formula. Also, starting foods too early can cause food allergies not only now, but later in life. The babies gut is still open until 6 months of age. It really makes me mad when people try to tell me that he is still hungry and he needs cereal, you don't know, because you are not around him. (This is not directed towards anyone that reads this, as far as I know) I guess my point is, I know my baby, I have done my research, I am doing what is best for him, period. We also talked about Jagger not sleeping well at night. I told the dr. that I was not willing to let him CIO and she agreed. She said that he is too young and I have to do what I feel comfortable with. I told her about the book I was reading and she said that it has some very good tips in it. This is another issue that really bothers me and everyone has an opinion about it. To me it is like an adult being stuck in a dark place all alone and them being scared, yet no one comes to comfort them. Would you like that? I know I wouldn't. So how can you make crying it out valid? I don't care what you did with your baby and how they turned out, I know Jagger would not like it and I know he is not old enough to even consider it. Again, it will never happen. I will get up with him if he contiunes to wake until he is 5 before I let him CIO. I just know who I will leave him with if it is ever around bedtime, no one but me or Aaron. Oh, it's not going to hurt him, maybe not physically, but emotionally it will and that is all that matters to me. Sorry, I feel very strongly about this subject. It just really bothers me when I know I am making the right decision because I have done my research and I have talked to the peditrician, yet you know nothing about it except what so and so did or what you did with your child. I don't want parenting advice unless I ask for it. I have made it four months with a very happy and healthy baby doing what I know is best for him. Sorry for the vent, and again, this is not directed to anyone that reads this, but I hope you find some useful/helpful information from my research if you have a baby or a baby on the way.
We close on our house tomorrow. We bought paint over the weekend and our blinds came it. I will be trying out the convection oven pretty quick because I am making cupcakes for a friends baby shower that is Sunday. I can't wait! I am still very irritable (if you can't tell from the rant above), so I will apologize ahead of time if I say something mean to anyone. The pedi recommended that I call my ob to discuss how I am feeling to see if I can get on a medication because I may be going through post partum depression. I am not sure if I am or not since it is quite stressful right now with the house and Jagger not sleeping well or not, but if it would make me feel better, then I am willing to give it a try.
Jagger is also 4 months old today. Again, where has time gone. I will take a picture of him later, he is a sleepy boy from his appointment this morning.
We had his 4 month check up and shots today. He weighs 12 pounds 13 ounces (13th percentile), 24 inches long (19th percentile), and head circumference of 41.5 cm (31st percentile). So he has jumped up in the weight percentile even though he is still small and he has a big noggin! I am going to start giving him more zantac because the current dosage seems to have stopped working as well. If it does not work well, then we will start with another medication. She was impressed with how high and how long he holds his head up and then he rolled over! We talked about starting solids. She does not recommend that they be started before 5 months, but preferably 6 months. I already knew that I was not going to start until 6 months. I have done alot of research and I think this is what is best for Jagger. So many people start their little one's on solids before it is time and probably without doing alot of research on it. I found that kellymom.com and Wholesome Baby Food have a tremendous amount of information. I have had a few people tell me that I should start Jagger on cereal because it may help him sleep through the night. I beg to differ. You do not replace a feeding with cereal, you do it after a baby as been fed with breastmilk or formula. Also, starting foods too early can cause food allergies not only now, but later in life. The babies gut is still open until 6 months of age. It really makes me mad when people try to tell me that he is still hungry and he needs cereal, you don't know, because you are not around him. (This is not directed towards anyone that reads this, as far as I know) I guess my point is, I know my baby, I have done my research, I am doing what is best for him, period. We also talked about Jagger not sleeping well at night. I told the dr. that I was not willing to let him CIO and she agreed. She said that he is too young and I have to do what I feel comfortable with. I told her about the book I was reading and she said that it has some very good tips in it. This is another issue that really bothers me and everyone has an opinion about it. To me it is like an adult being stuck in a dark place all alone and them being scared, yet no one comes to comfort them. Would you like that? I know I wouldn't. So how can you make crying it out valid? I don't care what you did with your baby and how they turned out, I know Jagger would not like it and I know he is not old enough to even consider it. Again, it will never happen. I will get up with him if he contiunes to wake until he is 5 before I let him CIO. I just know who I will leave him with if it is ever around bedtime, no one but me or Aaron. Oh, it's not going to hurt him, maybe not physically, but emotionally it will and that is all that matters to me. Sorry, I feel very strongly about this subject. It just really bothers me when I know I am making the right decision because I have done my research and I have talked to the peditrician, yet you know nothing about it except what so and so did or what you did with your child. I don't want parenting advice unless I ask for it. I have made it four months with a very happy and healthy baby doing what I know is best for him. Sorry for the vent, and again, this is not directed to anyone that reads this, but I hope you find some useful/helpful information from my research if you have a baby or a baby on the way.
We close on our house tomorrow. We bought paint over the weekend and our blinds came it. I will be trying out the convection oven pretty quick because I am making cupcakes for a friends baby shower that is Sunday. I can't wait! I am still very irritable (if you can't tell from the rant above), so I will apologize ahead of time if I say something mean to anyone. The pedi recommended that I call my ob to discuss how I am feeling to see if I can get on a medication because I may be going through post partum depression. I am not sure if I am or not since it is quite stressful right now with the house and Jagger not sleeping well or not, but if it would make me feel better, then I am willing to give it a try.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Friday, June 5, 2009
Sleep training
So, I have decided that we have to do something about Jagger not sleeping good. I read alot of reviews online and most say just let them cry it out (CIO) or deal with it. So, I kept looking for other books and came across "The No Cry Sleep Solution" by Elizabeth Pantley. I thought, I will give this a try. I went and bought it yesterday and have read about 1/4 of it. I have learned so much in just the amount I have read. I did not know what a babies sleep pattern was or that they slept so much lighter than we, as adults, do. I now know why he is waking up, not because he is hungry, but because he is going through his sleep cycles. We wake up and roll over or pull the cover up and never know it, but when he wakes up, he doesn't know how to put himself back to sleep except to nurse or get the paci. I have not read far enough to know what to do to get him to know how to put himself back to sleep yet. I did know that I wanted something that did not involve CIO though. That is not my style and there is no way I could ever let him cry for an hour straight, like some book suggest. Ferber suggest that you check in every few minutes and then gradually make it longer. From what I have gathered, you will have relapses, even if it works on the first night. CIO also does not teach the baby to self soothe, they just wear themselves out. While doing my research on what method I wanted to use for sleep training I also read that by tending to your baby and not letting them cry makes them more social and confident later in life. So, I will let you know how this sleep training goes! I knew it was time to do something when Aaron said he was afraid to talk to me at night when he got home. I don't want to be that way at all.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Quick update
First, update on my brother....
He was discharged on Monday. He was supposed to have an exploratory surgery with a scope and also a biopsy of the spot on his lung and spleen, but the thoracic surgeon thought it was too big of a risk because he was almost positive that it was the fungal infection. I wish I knew the exact term, but I don't! He could have gotten this from Mexico 3 years ago or it could just be from living in the south in the damp humid conditions. He is on a medication that should clear it up. He goes back in a month to have another ct scan. The bad part about it being this, it can reoccur at anytime. I am just glad he is feeling better and that it was nothing too serious.
Second, the house.....
We close in less than a week!!!!! Our appliances are being delivered on Friday and I am going to make sure that they come in good condition. We are getting our window coverings in today! We will be buying the paint this weekend. We basically just have to pack the kitchen and move everything out to the garage to be ready for the move in a week. The girl that kept Jagger when I worked is going to keep him when we move and her boyfriend is going to help us move. Not much longer! I seriously can't wait! I know this sounds corny, but I can't wait to use my convection oven and my front load washer!! I have never been so excited to wash clothes! I am always excited to bake!
Third, Jagger....
He is doing good! He is still waking up alot at night. Unfortunately, he has been sleeping with us because it is so exhausting have to get up every 1 1/2 to 3 hours to feed him. I think I am creating a monster. I have not gotten more than 3 hours of sleep in 2 weeks. I weighed him yesterday and he did not weigh as much as I think he should. I will not tell you how much he weighed since I have the poll on the right! I am going to start giving him a 5 oz. bottle of bm in the am and pm with his medicine. In fact, last night I gave him 5 1/2 ozs. and he drank all of it. He is getting more and more of a personality and is so cute! He will just all of the sudden bust out laughing when he is staring at Abby or she starts barking, it is SO adorable! He is SUCH a mommy's boy. I feel bad for Aaron, but I think it is just a stage and he knows that I feed him. I am also always here with him. His 4 month birthday is on Monday and we also have his check up that day.
Fourth and finally, me....
I have become so exhausted that I could care less what is going on most of the time. I could cry at the drop of a pin. I am ugly to Aaron for no reason, but can't help it. Like right now, I feel really happy and am excited about the move, but by this afternoon, I will probably not care. My milk seems to have taken a plunge, which doesn't help the matter. When I have pumped to give Jagger bottles I only get maybe 1 oz. where I used to get 3 ozs. I am going to start taking an herbal supplement again, eating oatmeal, and try to drink a gallon of water a day. If I can, I am also going to pump for 10 minutes after Jagger gets done eating. Hopefully all of this will help, if not, it will really put me over the edge. Yes, Jagger has gotten almost 4 months of breast milk and that is way longer that most women bf, but it is so important to me to be able to nurse him for a year. It is not only for the benefits, but because it is that special bonding time that only me and Jagger can have. So, hopefully Jagger will start sleeping for longer stretches in his bed soon and I will start producing more milk. I have also been thinking about my grandaddy alot lately. I go through spells where I think of him multiple times a day instead of just once or twice a day. I miss him so much, but I am glad he is not suffering anymore. Aaron reminds me of him in alot of ways when it comes to how they both feel about there families. Grandaddy did everything he could to provide the best for his family and give them a good life. Aaron does the same thing. I hope we can raise and teach Jagger to be the same way, that is if I ever let him have a girlfriend, much less a wife :)
Well, that was not so quick or short, but that is what is going on!
He was discharged on Monday. He was supposed to have an exploratory surgery with a scope and also a biopsy of the spot on his lung and spleen, but the thoracic surgeon thought it was too big of a risk because he was almost positive that it was the fungal infection. I wish I knew the exact term, but I don't! He could have gotten this from Mexico 3 years ago or it could just be from living in the south in the damp humid conditions. He is on a medication that should clear it up. He goes back in a month to have another ct scan. The bad part about it being this, it can reoccur at anytime. I am just glad he is feeling better and that it was nothing too serious.
Second, the house.....
We close in less than a week!!!!! Our appliances are being delivered on Friday and I am going to make sure that they come in good condition. We are getting our window coverings in today! We will be buying the paint this weekend. We basically just have to pack the kitchen and move everything out to the garage to be ready for the move in a week. The girl that kept Jagger when I worked is going to keep him when we move and her boyfriend is going to help us move. Not much longer! I seriously can't wait! I know this sounds corny, but I can't wait to use my convection oven and my front load washer!! I have never been so excited to wash clothes! I am always excited to bake!
Third, Jagger....
He is doing good! He is still waking up alot at night. Unfortunately, he has been sleeping with us because it is so exhausting have to get up every 1 1/2 to 3 hours to feed him. I think I am creating a monster. I have not gotten more than 3 hours of sleep in 2 weeks. I weighed him yesterday and he did not weigh as much as I think he should. I will not tell you how much he weighed since I have the poll on the right! I am going to start giving him a 5 oz. bottle of bm in the am and pm with his medicine. In fact, last night I gave him 5 1/2 ozs. and he drank all of it. He is getting more and more of a personality and is so cute! He will just all of the sudden bust out laughing when he is staring at Abby or she starts barking, it is SO adorable! He is SUCH a mommy's boy. I feel bad for Aaron, but I think it is just a stage and he knows that I feed him. I am also always here with him. His 4 month birthday is on Monday and we also have his check up that day.
Fourth and finally, me....
I have become so exhausted that I could care less what is going on most of the time. I could cry at the drop of a pin. I am ugly to Aaron for no reason, but can't help it. Like right now, I feel really happy and am excited about the move, but by this afternoon, I will probably not care. My milk seems to have taken a plunge, which doesn't help the matter. When I have pumped to give Jagger bottles I only get maybe 1 oz. where I used to get 3 ozs. I am going to start taking an herbal supplement again, eating oatmeal, and try to drink a gallon of water a day. If I can, I am also going to pump for 10 minutes after Jagger gets done eating. Hopefully all of this will help, if not, it will really put me over the edge. Yes, Jagger has gotten almost 4 months of breast milk and that is way longer that most women bf, but it is so important to me to be able to nurse him for a year. It is not only for the benefits, but because it is that special bonding time that only me and Jagger can have. So, hopefully Jagger will start sleeping for longer stretches in his bed soon and I will start producing more milk. I have also been thinking about my grandaddy alot lately. I go through spells where I think of him multiple times a day instead of just once or twice a day. I miss him so much, but I am glad he is not suffering anymore. Aaron reminds me of him in alot of ways when it comes to how they both feel about there families. Grandaddy did everything he could to provide the best for his family and give them a good life. Aaron does the same thing. I hope we can raise and teach Jagger to be the same way, that is if I ever let him have a girlfriend, much less a wife :)
Well, that was not so quick or short, but that is what is going on!
Monday, June 1, 2009
New pictures
Here are some new pictures of the Jagger man!
Jagger and daddy
6-1-09
6-1-09
6-1-09, his new hat!
6-1-09
5-28-09~ That is Emma's ball, she was trying to get him to play.
5-29-09-Sleeping angel
Jagger and daddy
6-1-09
6-1-09
6-1-09, his new hat!
6-1-09
5-28-09~ That is Emma's ball, she was trying to get him to play.
5-29-09-Sleeping angel
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